I'm 20 and I already feel old as fuck

20 feels like I’m running and I don’t even know where. I see kids younger than me,I was them just yesterday. And it doesn't help that those teenager subreddits keep Poppin on my feed. Now idek some of the slangs they use?!? Now I’m here, not a kid, not really an adult, just existing. It’s like I blinked, and childhood slipped away.

When I was younger, I never wanted to grow up. Adults always seemed tired, stressed, lost. I used to listen to these people and comfort them, help them with whatever you're going through. And now I am them... I get why they sighed so much. But here I am..20 still feeling and acting like I'm 15, still wishing I could just be a child forever.

And the worst part? It only moves faster. Every year speeds up, every birthday feels like a countdown instead of a celebration. I don’t wanna be 21. I don’t wanna be 25. I don’t wanna wake up one day and be 30 and wonder where the hell my life went.

I miss cartoons at 7 AM. I miss school lunch breaks. I miss being excited over the smallest things. Now, even the biggest things feel small. College sucks. Making friends is almost impossible for me. All the responsibilities piling up one by one and the procrastination makes it worse.

Growing up sucks big time. I wish I could stop time. Sigh.